Animals instinctively know when they’re dying. They just don’t think about what’s to come since they have no knowledge of it’s existence, until it happens or is happening. It’s just nature. People know too. My dad, my aunt, my mom … they knew and it wasn’t until I went into my aunt’s room and she was scared. She pulled herself up a bit, on one side, and said, “I’m dying. I don’t want to die.” Her face – it was the face of certainty. I sat down on her bed and said, “Hey, what makes you think that, You don’t know for sure … we’re expecting you to rebound. We’ve seen it with dad, and even if you were, you know you’ll be okay. Remember our talks and how the universe isn’t evil … it just is. It’s chaotic, and dangerous, but it’s also changing and evolving. It’s natural because it’s meant to be. After a bit of a chat, where I was pretty much doing the talking. She lay on her back with a pillow under head and the bed raised. She watched me … and I hope she was listening, but she just watched me. When I asked if she was okay, she would quietly respond. The nurse told me she heard me. She sat at a computer outside the door. I was a little concerned with what she thought of all that I said, since she was wearing hijab. I didn’t really feel like defending myself. I said, “She’s sure she’s dying,” and she said something about what I had said, like it was comforting, or nice, or something like that. I asked, “Is she right?” and she pretty much agreed.
Nothing evil is meant to be. An evil person is not meant to be one … he’s meant to grow up to be a nice person. Something happened that caused his evilness, perhaps genetically or psychologically. Death must be okay because it’s meant to be. Sadly, to move forward, we needed consciousness, and awareness, and with that came a need to learn. And we learned that our lives end one day, which was unacceptable.
How much damage does a consistent 7.4 A1C to 7.6 A1C do to your body?
I have zero desire to have a relationship with anyone so why not just live with my best friend. Works for me … most of the time. There are also times of a strong desire to live alone. And times of plotting murder … just kidding but am I? I am, but I’m I also high at this time. I mean medicated …